Miss Independent

I woke up at 8:30 this morning, put on the coffee and sat down to watch The Bachelorette! I absolutely love this show- I think she picked the right guys to go home this time- although I really dislike Dave- he seems like a bully and VERY controlling, definitely not someone that Jillian needs in her life- I hope she sees his true colors soon! I also watched The Newlyweds- I know, such a silly show- but I only have a few channels, so I can’t be too choosy right? I did weigh in this morning and I was down 2.5 lbs which I was TOTALLY excited about! My mood was kind of deflated by the afternoon though, once I realized that I had been in the house all day and we weren’t going to the gym- once again, I allow people to let me down- I’m so tired of it, seriously. I am going to have to start driving on my own, so that I can go when and where I want to go- I have a major fear of driving (I was in a really bad wreck when I was 17 - my bronco flipped about 4 times w/me & my sister in it and now when I do drive, I grip the steering wheel so hard that my hands turn red- I really need to pray about this..) that I have to get over or move to a city where I can walk/take the metro. I’m so tired of depending on people and being let down- it sucks- it’s my fault really- I shouldn’t depend on people, that is one of my problems, I need absolutely HAVE to be more independent. Right now,  I am not happy at the point I am at in my life and I need to make some major changes- no one is to blame, except for me for allowing things to happen the way they have.  I need to sit down and do some serious thinking about my life.

Anyway, I did get a couple of things acomplished today- I organized my pictures into folders so now they are easier to find.  I also finally did my post for Larabar in hopes of getting some goodies & maybe a free tshirt out of the deal- I seriously LOVE Larabars!

I am going to work on my resume tomorrow- there is a blogging/writing job that I REALLY want and I need to update my resume! I SERIOUSLY need a job right now- I am going stir crazy sitting here at home. Even with my product reviews, gym and keeping the house-I’d like to actually have a paycheck PAYING career.

Does anyone have an actual blogging career? If so, in what field? I plan on going back to college to take up journalism, photography, and maybe even computer programming, etc. to help in my blogging career.